Another resolution I forgot to mention

I have been trying to win cloth diapers so I can gather enough to switch over from disposable.  Not having much luck so when I discoved some $ in my Papal account and got a 20% code for Amazon, I decided to bit the bullet.  I have tried the Kushies All In One and really liked it.  I decided to try their Ultra Lite and hope to have 10 of those next week. I am excited but I have a feeling once I scrape that first poop I might feel a bit differently. Crossing my fingers that Ollie stays on his current, and regular pooping schedule.

Resolutions

The last few months of 2010 kinda sucked and I let myself wallow in it a bit.
I had a little "get your head out of your ass" talk with myself recently and decided to put down some resolutions so I can hold myself accountable.

The "I will do" resolutions: 

• Lose weight, stay away from fast food, get myself and the kids out of the house more, get some exercise, save money and cook healthier meals for my family.  All of this may lead to another baby I hope.  I would also like to make this blog into something worth reading but I find myself eating cold mac and cheese and reading about the lives of women and mommies I want to be like. So not productive.

The "Things I need to remember" resolutions: 

• That believing in karma or doing unto others means thoughts as well as actions. A smile and a kind word are sometimes better than trying to fix everything. 
• I am an adult now and even though I want to stay in denial about it, my parents are getting older and I need to step up to not only be a good daughter but to show my kids how to treat their parents. I can yell all I want but setting the example is usually what works.
• Speaking of yelling.  I need to stop.  I swore I would never spank, yell or bribe my kids but I screwed that up once the threes hit town.  It does no good to yell at little kids  I learned that from my childhood and it beaks my heart to see the tears it causes and to hear that same anger in my voice that I heard in my Dads. It has to stop.
• I also need to remember that possessions do not equal happiness.  I am usually good at this one but the internet makes retail therapy too damn easy.

I really hope 2011 is a better year.  There is a lot to look forward to.

Tis the season of ick.

We are all still coughing and I am out of cough drops! Made it to the store yesterday but forgot to get more. The sink is so full of dishes I cannot see it.  We have no clean towels and Sutt has no clean pants.  Looks like it is pajama day.  I make myself feel better by telling myself that Sutt will look back on our pajama days fondly as if I am a cool Mom and it was all part of my plan.  I will quietly smile because I was just a slack ass and got away with it.

Monday lives on.

Lets see.

More than half the household sick? Check
Window in car broken? Check
Cost of repairing window over $400? Check
12 hours or so of rain?  Check
Kid fell out of bed while I was dreaming about zombies? Check
Both kids awake before 6 am? Check
Forgot to shower? Check

Dreading spending day at "Car Doctor" with two sick, whiney kiddos while childless woman reading novel gives me dirty looks? Check

I am a bad blogfriend.

I started this relationship then completely ignored my sig other. I am truly surprised my blog has not dumped me yet.
Will try to be better, I promise.

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green moon rising: thirty-one gifts giveaway ($93!!! 2 winners!)

Dog doo doo

I used to say son of a bitch a lot but am trying to be better about cussing around the kids so I have pulled out the old dog doo doo I used at work.




I am an Aries and for the most part I fit the description. Passionate, firery temper etc..

I do have issues with change though.



I love rearranging furniture and moving stuff around but that is just about the only place I like my change. This explains why I stayed in a bad relationship for way to long and stay at jobs for about 5 years at a time. When pushed into a corner I can sometimes make quick decisions that, to my surprise, are the perfect solution.



This is one of those times.



Maybe.



We (I am) are out of money. I cut back the cable and internet, got rid of my old cell phone, turned down the temp, drive only when necessary, do the laundry in cold water and so on in an attempt to save money. It is now time to cut back on the day care. It has been 5 months. I am totally bonded with the baby and over my postpartum issues so why have I been throwing money at day care when I am not working?



I am saving my sanity that's why!



I love my son, He is the best of both me and my husband but I am a better Mom when I get some time away from him. That time not only allows me to catch up at home but allows me to recharge my patience.



I read a blog the other day in which a woman wrote about how she was at her breaking point with her kid in Target one day. One of those moments that you are grateful someone can see you so you do not give into the urge to smack the whine out of your kids voice! She said an older woman came up to her and said something basically like you are everything to your child. Her post was much better written and when I figure out what the hell I am doing I will link to it and give her the credit she is due. I just needed to read that at that moment. Now when my son is driving me crazy with his passive aggressive whining, just being a kid really and I am wanting to run away, I think about the fact that to him, I am his world. I am his mother, teacher and how to manual all in one plump, unshaven form. He is learning how to treat others by how I treat him and especially how I treat myself (note to self, start showering daily again).



This is my little pep talk to myself since I am biting the bullet and taking my son out of daycare. He can count to 20, speak in full sentences, feed himself, use the potty, wash up and take off all of his clothes in .5 seconds.



Surely I cannot fuck all that up by the time he starts school.



Right?