Wednesday, December 29, 2010


The last few months of 2010 kinda sucked and I let myself wallow in it a bit.
I had a little "get your head out of your ass" talk with myself recently and decided to put down some resolutions so I can hold myself accountable.

The "I will do" resolutions: 
  • Lose weight, stay away from fast food, get myself and the kids out of the house more, get some exercise, save money and cook healthier meals for my family.  All of this may lead to another baby I hope.  I would also like to make this blog into something worth reading but I find myself eating cold mac and cheese and reading about the lives of women and mommies I want to be like. So not productive.

The "Things I need to remember" resolutions: 
  • That believing in karma or doing unto others means thoughts as well as actions. A smile and a kind word are sometimes better than trying to fix everything. 
  • I am an adult now and even though I want to stay in denial about it, my parents are getting older and I need to step up to not only be a good daughter but to show my kids how to treat their parents. I can yell all I want but setting the example is usually what works.
  • Speaking of yelling.  I need to stop.  I swore I would never spank, yell or bribe my kids but I screwed that up once the threes hit town.  It does no good to yell at little kids  I learned that from my childhood and it beaks my heart to see the tears it causes and to hear that same anger in my voice that I heard in my Dads. It has to stop.
  • I also need to remember that possessions do not equal happiness.  I am usually good at this one but the internet makes retail therapy too damn easy.
I really hope 2011 is a better year.  There is a lot to look forward to.

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Tis the season of ick.

We are all still coughing and I am out of cough drops! Made it to the store yesterday but forgot to get more. The sink is so full of dishes I cannot see it.  We have no clean towels and Sutt has no clean pants.  Looks like it is pajama day.  I make myself feel better by telling myself that Sutt will look back on our pajama days fondly as if I am a cool Mom and it was all part of my plan.  I will quietly smile because I was just a slack ass and got away with it.

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Monday lives on.

Lets see.

More than half the household sick? Check
Window in car broken? Check
Cost of repairing window over $400? Check
12 hours or so of rain?  Check
Kid fell out of bed while I was dreaming about zombies? Check
Both kids awake before 6 am? Check
Forgot to shower? Check

Dreading spending day at "Car Doctor" with two sick, whiney kiddos while childless woman reading novel gives me dirty looks? Check

Monday, November 29, 2010

I am a bad blogfriend.

I started this relationship then completely ignored my sig other. I am truly surprised my blog has not dumped me yet.
Will try to be better, I promise.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Dog doo doo

I used to say son of a bitch a lot but am trying to be better about cussing around the kids so I have pulled out the old dog doo doo I used at work.

I am an Aries and for the most part I fit the description. Passionate, firery temper etc..

I do have issues with change though.

I love rearranging furniture and moving stuff around but that is just about the only place I like my change. This explains why I stayed in a bad relationship for way to long and stay at jobs for about 5 years at a time. When pushed into a corner I can sometimes make quick decisions that, to my surprise, are the perfect solution.

This is one of those times.


We (I am) are out of money. I cut back the cable and internet, got rid of my old cell phone, turned down the temp, drive only when necessary, do the laundry in cold water and so on in an attempt to save money. It is now time to cut back on the day care. It has been 5 months. I am totally bonded with the baby and over my postpartum issues so why have I been throwing money at day care when I am not working?

I am saving my sanity that's why!

I love my son, He is the best of both me and my husband but I am a better Mom when I get some time away from him. That time not only allows me to catch up at home but allows me to recharge my patience.

I read a blog the other day in which a woman wrote about how she was at her breaking point with her kid in Target one day. One of those moments that you are grateful someone can see you so you do not give into the urge to smack the whine out of your kids voice! She said an older woman came up to her and said something basically like you are everything to your child. Her post was much better written and when I figure out what the hell I am doing I will link to it and give her the credit she is due. I just needed to read that at that moment. Now when my son is driving me crazy with his passive aggressive whining, just being a kid really and I am wanting to run away, I think about the fact that to him, I am his world. I am his mother, teacher and how to manual all in one plump, unshaven form. He is learning how to treat others by how I treat him and especially how I treat myself (note to self, start showering daily again).

This is my little pep talk to myself since I am biting the bullet and taking my son out of daycare. He can count to 20, speak in full sentences, feed himself, use the potty, wash up and take off all of his clothes in .5 seconds.

Surely I cannot fuck all that up by the time he starts school.


Friday, February 12, 2010

Best invite ever!

My friend Melissa is on of the most creative and talented people I know.  She made amazing quilts for the boys, which I should post photos of but I suck at taking photos of stuff.  I can never quite get it right and these quilts deserve better than that!
I did have to take a photo of the Oscar night/birthday bash invites she sent out.
They. are. impressive.

Like I said, I take crap photos of anything other than my kiddo's but here it is. 
It came with a lovely ticket to the event, two ballots sealed with mini movie theater drinks and a Fourtune Teller Miracle Fish!
I bet none of the celebs attending the actual Oscar's will get anything as cool as that Fish in their swag bags.

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Thursday or can I survive until Friday?

Sutt is home from preschool on Tuesdays and Thursdays right now. He is having a hard time adjusting to the changes in his schedule and our lives in general. Add that to a bit of the terrible twos going on threes.

Yay life is fun and full of surprises!

Yes, that drips with sarcasm.

I have been stressing out about it daily. I hate leaving a screaming, crying kiddo at preschool but I pay dearly for some time to keep the house livable and have some alone time with Ollie, or nap or read some chick lit.

Gotta have priorities, right?

Here is a little of what we did today.

I also got a little cleaning help while I did a load and a half of dishes, 3 loads of laundry and nursed a seemingly insatiable 4 month old.

Judging back the background of this photo it looks like I missed the kitchen entirely, oops.

Then came craft time. We decided to make Daddy a Valentine's Day present.

He is sure to be thrilled.

Obviously my craft skills are stuck in the 80's.